Simple and Clean

O my God! Yesterday begun URBE's registering process for the new term and it was pure, unadulterated madness! I got there at 5:10AM (even though it opened at 7AM) and there were already a lot of people queuing outside. When they opened, some of us were ushered into classrooms to leave the hallways open to traffic and that's when everything began. Once you're closed in a classroom you have no way of knowing what exactly is going on outside and after three hours of no movement at all and rumors of people stealing your place in the queue the mood began plus many a rumor that the system had collapsed repeatedly made the sleepy mood to turn into discomfort and ire.

By 9 I decided to go home. I had a bad experience when registering for last term (having been put into a classroom for 5 hours with no positive results). I went out, squeezing myself against all the people outside to a phone booth from where I called my brothers. They were in similar situations but stubbornly decided to remain. I got home and found Adri in a taxi (which I was directed to) and talked on our way home.

My brothers got home by noon and broke the news: the registering process was officially canceled.

I knew it!

It appears that things turned for the worse pretty quickly. Students began to chant, to call names on the administrative officers, to threaten with physical harm, to beat on the doors and to adopt a destructive behavior in general. They threw anything they had on hand (glasses, papers, cans of soda) and many a person got bathed in soda or similarly sticky liquids. There are rumors that they destroyed one of the new 40" plasma TVs that were recently installed on the halls. The infirmary was crowded with injured and asphyxiated students.

It was hell!

And while everything happened, I was at home reading fictions.

Apparently there's a glitch in the software (which is new) that makes it collapse when there's a data input from various sources at the same time or something like that. The university's website has announced that the registering process will begin anew on May, 2nd.

I've already decided to go at 8PM on the first day (it's open 'till 10) 'cause I have no desire to die trampled on, squeezed and/or asphyxiated (my height and build don't offer much protection against those fates) and there'll be a furious mob out there.

I think there are some videos on YouTube...

Well, this entry is so long overdue, really. I have been waiting to write this down since last week or so but was always so lazy to actually do it.

School is finished and my lowest score was 17/20 so I am getting better and improving my AGP which is good. This week (Tues, 24th) begins the registering process for the new semester (my 9th!) and classes begin on 05/02/07 which is less than 15 days ahead meaning I only get a week of vacations. I find it quite alright, as too much relax time makes my brain sluggish and stupid. Still, I plan to make the most of this free time of mine sleeping as much as I possibly can and get on with Beyond The Wasteland which sits unattended on my HD to my utter embarrassment.

Yesterday I went to a Graduation Act and did something different for a change. The invitation card said "formal wear" and well... I just turned a long skirt into a a chic little black dress, added a pair of high-heeled sandals (which were rader good at killing my poor, unaccustomed feet) and threw on a purplish-metallic Thailand-silk shawl to complete the look.

Things at home remain somewhat the same... With the only difference that I feel mom is finally at the end of her patience. She has already e-mailed a friend to help her find work somewhere and has been replied. She is to send her CV and did so today. I am not pivy of what she wrote today but I hope it means something good to us.

These days have been rainy days and I am enjoying them a lot. I love rainy days!

In the last couple of weeks I have downloaded and watched two Korean Dramas: Full House and A Love To Kill/The Death of Love and I loved them! I liked Full House more because it had a happy ending but A Love To Kill crushed my poor little heart. Bi's performance in both dramas is excellent. I highly recommend those dramas!

Holyweek (Easter) came and went and I spend all of that time sleeping and reading fictions until 4AM to then sleep 12 hours and begin the cicle again. On Friday I began to work on my school projects and managed to pull up perfect grades in my oral presentations for DAE and DIPr and a good grade in my Trade II test and another perfect score in English so I am satisfied!

Changes have been made to my little headquarters. The desktop was changed for a thinner one which allows for more space. It has the exact same width of my VAIO notebook when docked to the expansion base and is long enough to comfortably accommodate the speakers and mouse and let you plug in devices without topling anything. I added a sheet of cork to the bathroom door above a banner that reads "VAIO_Hime-sama no Hall of Fame" where I am to attach anything of my fancy ranging from labels of things I buy, ADs for things I want and papers/announcements that I have to keep in mind (I used to have one in my old room). Plus I finally have my wheeled chair! I bought it at a disccount store at a very good price!

Still no such luck with boys and it is annoying how people react to the news that you have no boyfriend. They look at you with such pity in their unconcerned faces and treat you like the most unfortunate thing this world has seen. I am drearing the time after I graduate. "Oh, you've already graduated! When are you going to marry?" and I think that I will attend my friend's weddings short after graduation...

The thing is that no boy I have met stirs something in me. I see them all so childish still. Maybe something is wrong with me. Maybe I have high expectations (ones impossible to meet). As I spoke with mom and a friend of us who at her 30 years remains unattached we came to the conclusion that we are such independent and self-suficient women that men scare away from us. Well, if they cannot see past their chauvinistic noses then it is their loss.

Okay well... I wanted to post this before I go on my trip tomorrow to a friend's house in the mountains and thus sever my internet connection for about four days. Nothing espectacular, but I'm just so excited to go! Aw, but since life ain't easy on good lil' girls like me, I have to go to the University tomorrow and right a major screw up in my schedule: they gave me an undesired, unasked-for subject instead of English (so my English diploma is in jeopardy) plus it appears on the system that I had not registered for Labor Law 3 which I did and I have proof in my sign-up paper! Brother's girlfriend told him that I had chances until today but I couldn't go today... I hope they're nice and help me tomorrow! 

So I have to be there at 7AM... Oh joy!

I'll most likely miss my first day at school too... Something about returning on Monday instead of Sunday.

I've already packed to go and this is the last thing I'll do before packing my baby-V too to go with me!

Now, off to sleep I go!

It's been a while, isn't it? Well, Rachie made me aware of that... I have nothing much to write about any happenings in my life but I could bitch for hours on end about my family; but as it turns out that I'm fed up of doing the same exact thing, I've decided agaisnt it... No matter how much my hands might itch to type those words... Oh and I have some interesting things in mind, a freshly-baked box of yesterday's memories! But no, won't do.

If life gives you lemons, make yourself a limonade... Though I much rather it'd be, "if life gives you lemons, find someone you hate and squeeze 'em in their eyes!" MWAHAHAHAHA, I'm so EVIL! Sadly, you aren't quoting that from me... I read it at someone's DeviantArt page. Genius whomever came up with that!

I went to the movies today with my brothers and I drove there. We watched "The Fast and The Furious: Tokyo Drift" and had a blast! True, those kind of movies have no plot at all, but who cares? I wasn't there for the plot, mind you, but for the gorgeous cars, awesome driving skills and the ocassional hottie! Oh, and then we ate at Burger King! Got home and logged in to my messenger and the thing hadn't finished loading when Rachie glomped me... Yay! We've talked ever since :)

I talked to mom yesterday... Maybe there's hope for me to change the study (now storage room) into my very own room with it's wee bathroom. The place is tiny but I'm not very large myself. Maybe I'll ask grandma to fund it, and by God I hope she doesn't strangle me with their caccophony of complaints about money. May I remind you all that it's me who has ended up the worse for wear in this so called family arrangement? I'm just asking for my own little room! (Enough family-inspired rant for today. It's so hard to stop myself!)... My birthday is nearing, maybe I'm in for a pleasant surprise?

... One can only hope, no?

Oh! I'll go on a trip to a friend's house in the mountains in another state with much cooler weather and lots of vegetation! We'll go this Thursday and come back next Sunday or early Monday... We do begin classes on Monday, though.

School! Well, it'll keep me entertained.

Things haven't changed much since I last wrote something. I managed to drive on my own though not so far away from home. At times I think that I won't reach the goals that I have in mind and it makes me depressed. I want to close my eyes and fast forward until the time where I am how I want to be. If it could be that easy.

Hello there!

I believe I have not told you about the most recent developments in my life. The family is still ill at ease and Aunt Lola is giving the silent treatment to mom, at which Grandmother does nothing. "Leave it to God," she said to mom yesterday.

But I am not here to talk to you about this... I GOT MY DRIVER'S LICENSE last Wednesday! *YAY* I am so very happy about it! I went with Edgar (the male-nurse who is now a close friend of my little family, just like Alura) and I gave him the keys to the car just as mom instructed but he tossed them back and commanded me to drive; after all it would be me who was going to try for the license.

I was SO nervous! I could not even talk because my chin was so deadly set that it could not move! I had to take the highway number 1 and take the last exit to my right and then get into an avenue that I have not a clue as to its name and go on a bit further until the brick-building of the Ministry of Transport came into view. He wanted me to drive in the fast-lane and I complied. No one honked at me so I guess I managed to keep a nice and steady velocity. It did not take us much time to get there so it is either I was so nervous I did not notice the time passing or I was going really, really fast.

After I did the paperwork and took the test I had to wait until 3PM to get my results (it being close to 11AM) so I drove back home, had lunch, he bathed uncle and by 2:30PM we were going out again. This time I went with Edgar (again) and little brother who insisted on taking the camcorder with him. They wanted some ice-cream and since there was a McDonald's close-by I went into the drive-through (a very narrow space, I am sure you know) and bought them their desserts before continuing on our way.

I passed my tests *YAY* and they gave me a provisional license that will serve me until the laminated (hard plastic) one arrives in five or six months (O_O)!

I first took a hold of a car when I was 13 or 14 when mother, out of the blue, took me to drive. At the time we lived in a closed residential area that belongs to the state oil company in which lived all of it's high-ranking workers. It's a very quiet place with no traffic and that's were I learned how to step on the gas and brakes. A week after I drove in town with mom beside me from a friend's of hers towards home and that was all about it. Then we moved into the big city and mom sold the car because she couldn't pay it and after awhile she bought another, a second hand-looking as new Century Buick. With it she signed me up for driving lessons when I was 16 I think for three days so I learned to sped up, slow down, put the brakes, the lights, the signals, change lanes, take turns and go on reverse; and just when I was about to try for my licence then mom sold the car. Now, a longer while later mom bought Toyo-kun to her best friend who was moving to Miami. A silver-plated 1996 Toyota Corolla. It needs a job paint and a new dashboard (the one it has now is broken near where the stereo is because some retarded kids tried to steal it using knives; and while they were at it, they damaged the door on the driver's side); but it's a lovely car and the only one I can access to.

So imagine my shock when after three or so years of being a passenger I was put in front of a wheel and had to take a highway! Of course, I couldn't let the opportunity to pass me by. It was now or most probably never and I'm so tired of taking buses or taxis (which are very expensive). It's nothing short of a miracle that mom is allowing me to drive... but I'll enjoy it until I can.

I still get a bit nervous when I sit there in the driver's seat but I'm coming to terms with it. Today was my first outing alone and I got only one car honking at me! And it was because I stopped to allow some cars to cross...

Much love,
Dana Daidouji

Right now I wonder when will enough be enough.

Grandmother left and we are now as we were before but a bit worse. Mom tried to explain how we can't live with the tid-bits that she gives us and she launched on a speech of how we don't need a thing and how she gives us what we need and how she gave money to mom when the washing-machine and the car broke down. Need I tell you that it is that machine that washes her son's laundry and it is that car who takes him everywhere?

Mom requested to grandma to give her uncle's bills instead of Aunt Aurora (Lola) because she never pays attention to a word mom says and never bothers to read the statement; so mom told Grandma the amount owned to the nurse and after she took it to aunt, the later came to mom saying: "all of this for whiping his ass?" Need I comment on this?

The sad thing is that they will never understand what's it like to take care of him and the expenses involved if they don't get to experience it first-hand and to do so uncle must be relocated... something that mom won't allow because she won't use him to prove a point. I understand her and I wouldn't want to do so either but when will enough be enough? I'm so tired of mom bending to the wills of others, of her being pushed and pulled along like a rag-doll.

She's going to take some legal measures regarding uncle's business and it will make things even uglier. Uncle doesn't know a thing about all of this madness and we can't tell him because we have no way to know what will he think and how it'll affect him.

I may not be able to study this semester and it makes me so mad! Can't they see that this is not a luxury? If mom were still in Mexico or somewhere else working as she planned then we wouldn't be going through this economic glitch! Mom say that we would have to unsuscribe from the cable service and turn off the AC if I we want to study... Why the hell should I have to lower my already low living-standars so that I can study just because they don't want to give us the damned money we need and rightfully ask?!

As I said to mom, I won't put up with this!!! She's already told about selling the car or some appliances and THERE'S NO WAY I WILL ALLOW THAT!!!

When something doesn't function, it should be removed, uninstalled, deactivated, cut-off or whatever and I think we should do just about that to this disfunctional family.

It would be so wonderfull if mom manages to get a job abroad and all of us go with her, including uncle; but that's something very unprobable and almost as unthinkable.

I just want to curl up and cry to death.

Right now Grandmother, Aunt, Cousin and his mother are visiting Uncle... And the day has finally come to put things into order. I was called into the kitchen thirty minutes ago to testify in favor of something that mom said: last year we got our Christmas' allowance a couple of weeks before Uncle was shot. My brothers spent in in cellphones months after but I couldn't. I had to use it all buying groceries and in transportation because I had to help my family who was keeping vigil over Uncle when he was at the ICU. Apparently Mom and Grandmother are talking about "the past" and the elder outright denied any good-doings on my part and insists that no one stayed here, had breakfast/lunch/dinner here and that her Saint-of-a-Daughter (her eldest) wasn't helped at all by anyone, especially me. Mom is hurt by this, I saw it in her red face and as I returned to my little closet I almost cracked down and cried. I know what I did and you can ask all of my Uncle's and my two Aunt's. I spent that money because mom was out of the country and I had spent the grocery-money in regular shopping for the 4 of us (Mrs. Carmela, my siblings and me). Today will be the day when mom tells Grandma how she needs to adjust our income or else she's got to work and thus won't be able to take care of Uncle and by the looks of things it won't be pretty.

I'll update as soon as I have the full story.

For someone who commented so much on my good actions, Grandma sure hits hard.

I sit here, slightly dejected, knowing that today is my youngest brother's service in honor of his High School Graduation and I can't be with him. I listened to the fuzz and helped mom put on her make up (I "made her up" actually) and saw how everyone left the house looking flashy while I stayed at home... To take care of uncle. Though I volunteered, it makes me sad to know that I won't be there with baby-brother tonight. Hopefully I'll attend his Graduation Ceremony on Sunday and maybe I'll go to the party in August... I was thinking of inviting Marialex to go with me and maybe I could unwind a little bit.

However, seeing as to how I didn't want this day to pass by like nothing, I took a pic of baby-brother that I think makes him look quite dashing. I'm so proud of him even if we bicker around quite a lot. They say that third is a charm and I think he came up being the prettiest of us three. 

Love,
Moi!

I write this today as a mean to pass the time even though I have pressing matters that I must attend to, like studying for my Trade Law test due Wednesday for instance; but it has been so long since I touched the PC (three days) that I just cannot get enough even if what I am doing is of no particular importance, just random clicks that take me nowhere.

I had an argument with mom today about how dependable I am on her. I wanted a lift to the orthodoncist and she agreed to take me there yesterday but today she complained about how far away from home is the place (not my fault) and how it will make her be late to do her other errands (not my fault either). "Why don't you take a taxi? Why do you always have to depend on me?" Well excuse me! I'd gladly take a taxi if I had the money for it. Besides, the purpose of having a car is cutting expenses, is it not? Then we got into the car and all I could do was recite The Lord's Prayer over and over again in my mind to take the head out of the gutter. At the gas station she pronounced three sentences as a mean of icre-breaker chit-chat but I was not too convinced about her intentions and it already sucked that we were in such a confined space. When we arrived to the doctor's office I got out and walked on and then she said: "you're gonna miss out a lot of things in life. Why wouldn't you bend (give in) and talk? You knew I was going to wait for you but here you walk away and leave me behind!" And I was like: "Yeah right... I rather not get my head chewed off thank you very much" but settled on saying, "I thought you were still mad and saw no point on arguing in the car," at what she said "why must you always think for others? you could've changed the topic or something." I just won't comment on that. Mom gets too much on the extremes at times for me to be comfortable with her... You just do not know from where she will attack next.

Something similar happened yesterday... It is a long story but she attributed the whole thing to me being nervous about today's exam and on me being sad about what happened to France in the WC. WTF?! I will not comment on that either...

I took my Tributary Law test today! I feel so relieved now! I do not have to worry over it anymore! I know that I passed the test but I do not know if I did good, excellent or not so good...

I changed the size of the pictures to make them work with the layout... It looks better now.

I am leaving for dinner now... And then benkyo!